Last week was a challenging week for me yet next week is going to be moreeeeee challenging. I mean like can I have a little break. A little time for me to breath, to rest, to relax. can it be a lot quicker for me to graduate. I am just tired with all the drama and the lifestyle that I'm currently doing.
New life I hope it'll be a lot better. well well well I guess I gotta go! I have to do some exercises for the practical exams that are waitng for me. And please! I kinda need y'all help. I can't decide what food I should cook for my cooking exam. If you have any suggestions, please tell me! Don't forget about the recipe! merci beaucoup :)
"Whenever you find whole world against you, just turn around and lead the world"
Sabtu, 23 Februari 2013
Jumat, 08 Februari 2013
TEENAGE DREAM (?)
It's been a very long time since the last time I went over this blog. Life's getting harder everyday, buut I'm still trying to keep up with all the craziness. I've never imagined that my senior year would be the worst year in my life. I knew it from the very first time I went to that class, It won't be easy but I didn't expect it to be this hard also.
All these feelings are disturbing me today. But the worst thing is that I don't know who i should talk to. I believe I have a very few friends who I could talk to, but I don't think they would understand. I hate of being used. Being smart doesn't mean that I want people to come to me when they have something that needed to be finished. I'm tired. Everything that I do seems wrong to them. I'm torn into apart. I barely recognize who my friends are. And one thing you guys should know, karma does exist. so when you do bad things in your present lives, I hope in the future you could get what you really deserve.
Standing against the majority in my class seems wrong. The popular group takes over the class. I just want a peaceful year. high school seems like a nightmare now. The worst thing is that my parents know nothing about this. I'm tired of all the pressures that I'm getting. I just need my life to be the way it used to be. When I was loved, respected, and happy. I barely see myself smiling nowadays. And I miss my smile.
National exams are waiting. I hope I could nail it! I believe in my ability, I'll pass it with my own effort! I just hate, when I have worked my ass off but the results are not the way I expected. and those who rely on cheating always got a good score! screw you!
THE BEST THING is that my senior year will be over in 68 days! I can finally free myself from all the negativities around me. So, I've decided that I want to attend the Newcastle University, in United Kingdom. It's pretty far from home, but that's really what I need. I've been dreaming of studying abroad for a very long time. So hopefully It will go the way I wanted.
When people said "life is like a rollercoaster. It has its ups and downs...but it's your choice to either scream or enjoy the ride. Be Positive" maybe it's true. And now my life's on the down side of it. But sooner or later it'll reach its ups back! Trust me no one can stop me from reaching my dreams! so let's see *fingercrossed* best of luck for me! See you later, alligator :)
All these feelings are disturbing me today. But the worst thing is that I don't know who i should talk to. I believe I have a very few friends who I could talk to, but I don't think they would understand. I hate of being used. Being smart doesn't mean that I want people to come to me when they have something that needed to be finished. I'm tired. Everything that I do seems wrong to them. I'm torn into apart. I barely recognize who my friends are. And one thing you guys should know, karma does exist. so when you do bad things in your present lives, I hope in the future you could get what you really deserve.
Standing against the majority in my class seems wrong. The popular group takes over the class. I just want a peaceful year. high school seems like a nightmare now. The worst thing is that my parents know nothing about this. I'm tired of all the pressures that I'm getting. I just need my life to be the way it used to be. When I was loved, respected, and happy. I barely see myself smiling nowadays. And I miss my smile.
National exams are waiting. I hope I could nail it! I believe in my ability, I'll pass it with my own effort! I just hate, when I have worked my ass off but the results are not the way I expected. and those who rely on cheating always got a good score! screw you!
THE BEST THING is that my senior year will be over in 68 days! I can finally free myself from all the negativities around me. So, I've decided that I want to attend the Newcastle University, in United Kingdom. It's pretty far from home, but that's really what I need. I've been dreaming of studying abroad for a very long time. So hopefully It will go the way I wanted.
When people said "life is like a rollercoaster. It has its ups and downs...but it's your choice to either scream or enjoy the ride. Be Positive" maybe it's true. And now my life's on the down side of it. But sooner or later it'll reach its ups back! Trust me no one can stop me from reaching my dreams! so let's see *fingercrossed* best of luck for me! See you later, alligator :)
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