a brand new start

It's hard when you come to a new place and barely know nothing about it. That's my life now. University life has already started. All alone in this new town. I love everything about me. I thought everything would be easy here, but I'm completely wrong about it. 

Away from family and friends are not that hard for me. It's just that this new environtment is completely different with what I used to have makes it a little bit hard for me to keep up with. Enjoying every single minute of it. Physically I am in my new place, but it feels like I left my heart somewhere else. 

Well, no further info about that. Wish me luck for everything I do here! Hope It will turn out good. Still don't know who I miss the most. Could be you, you, you, or you? See ya! 

"I don't want you, but I don't want to lose you either"

Recent days

Things have been very difficult these past days. I thought life would be easier and this job would not be this challenging. But I was definitely definitely wrong! Those kids are ridiculously insanse! How could I deal with that. Thank God it will only last for another very few weeks. IFFFFFFF.... the interview that I did yesterday was enough. Hopefully *fingers crossed*.

Gotta go! Have a lovely day! xoxo, ms.

"Not an optimist, just a realist"

EXCITEMENT

TIME REALLY FLIES. I still remember how busy i was a few months ago. Dealing with all the exams. But now here I am waiting to continue my study in the next two months. To fill my very long holiday, I am now a temporary english teacher for a course here in my home country. So far it has been one exciting job! I like dealing with kids, moreover it helps me to maintain my English skill before i go to UK. Still a lot of things to do in the next two months. Can't believe that I am now already 18. Hopefully this year would be one great year.

In my early days as an 18 girl was really fun. I had my friends calling me to say happy birthday, and in the morning I got another bunch of friends coming to my house for my birthday surprise! And it was followed by another two surprises that i got from my beloved friends. Yeah You can say it I AM BLESSED *courtesy to someone who said it to me on my special day*. Now, I'm enjoying every single minute of my life. Be thankful for what i have and what i don't have.

Alright! I gotta go cause I need to wake up early tomorrow. I'll see you soon hopefully maybe before I go to UK or when I arrive there! Xoxo, MS.

Jobless boss

Definitely not the news that i wanted to hear. Not today nor anytime in my life. How could it happen in my life? I can do nothing except praying for the best for you, pap :') Hope you will find something bigger and better than what yesterday has given to you. 

Best regards, 

Your daughter

Free as a bird

Well hello! It's been a long time and here I am trying to write about something! So exams are done and now I'm as free as a bird. Considering whether or not should I take any job. Although I'm still worried with the results with my tests. Since the tests were ridiculously hard! Anw, who cares! I'm on holiday and I should enjoy it before the hectic crazy days as a university students in september *hopefully*.

Enough saying. It's all about me me me. Next post is gonna be about my current favorite obsession! Woop woop!

Here's my favorite quote that keeps me strong lately.
"Wrong is wrong even if everyone's doing it. Right is right even if no one's doing it"

A little break would be good :)

Last week was a challenging week for me yet next week is going to be moreeeeee challenging. I mean like can I have a little break. A little time for me to breath, to rest, to relax. can it be a lot quicker for me to graduate. I am just tired with all the drama and the lifestyle that I'm currently doing.

New life I hope it'll be a lot better. well well well I guess I gotta go! I have to do some exercises for the practical exams that are waitng for me. And please! I kinda need y'all help. I can't decide what food I should cook for my cooking exam. If you have any suggestions, please tell me! Don't forget about the recipe! merci beaucoup :)
"Whenever you find whole world against you, just turn around and lead the world"

TEENAGE DREAM (?)

It's been a very long time since the last time I went over this blog. Life's getting harder everyday, buut I'm still trying to keep up with all the craziness. I've never imagined that my senior year would be the worst year in my life. I knew it from the very first time I went to that class, It won't be easy but I didn't expect it to be this hard also.

All these feelings are disturbing me today. But the worst thing is that I don't know who i should talk to. I believe I have a very few friends who I could talk to, but I don't think they would understand. I hate of being used. Being smart doesn't mean that I want people to come to me when they have something that needed to be finished. I'm tired. Everything that I do seems wrong to them. I'm torn into apart. I barely recognize who my friends are. And one thing you guys should know, karma does exist. so when you do bad things in your present lives, I hope in the future you could get what you really deserve.

Standing against the majority in my class seems wrong. The popular group takes over the class. I just want a peaceful year. high school seems like a nightmare now. The worst thing is that my parents know nothing about this. I'm tired of all the pressures that I'm getting. I just need my life to be the way it used to be. When I was loved, respected, and happy. I barely see myself smiling nowadays. And I miss my smile.

National exams are waiting. I hope I could nail it! I believe in my ability, I'll pass it with my own effort! I just hate, when I have worked my ass off but the results are not the way I expected. and those who rely on cheating always got a good score! screw you!

THE BEST THING is that my senior year will be over in 68 days! I can finally free myself from all the negativities around me. So, I've decided that I want to attend the Newcastle University, in United Kingdom. It's pretty far from home, but that's really what I need. I've been dreaming of studying abroad for a very long time. So hopefully It will go the way I wanted.

When people said "life is like a rollercoaster. It has its ups and downs...but it's your choice to either scream or enjoy the ride. Be Positive" maybe it's true. And now my life's on the down side of it. But sooner or later it'll reach its ups back! Trust me no one can stop me from reaching my dreams! so let's see *fingercrossed* best of luck for me! See you later, alligator :)